My Latest Trepidation

Bolstered by popular demand (mosho) and inspired by J.K. Yadling's writings on tea time masti, I've decided to stir up my zest for writing. And before I forget, the real reason of my return to the blogosphere, has much to do with my inability to focus on the impending thesis and certain turn of events, that for good or for worst, aren't helping my quest to be free from the curse of thesis.

Whatever be the case, one thing is clear as crystal. The more I push towards perfection, the more lazy and uninterested I become. Perhaps a good old dose of Mom's sarcasm (she calls me slob whenever I exhibit bouts of behavioral disorders) would help me climb my way up from the bottomless pit that I've managed to get myself into. The good thing is this is not a first for me. I've experienced more lows than highs in life. So this must be a new low before a big high. That's that...

Proceeding to todays matter of discussion, have you ever been in situations where you know you are right? (I mean you can even bet your life on it) Yet others don't seem to think so, even after a hard fought rational debate, you still remain miles away from getting the point home. What do you do then?.... I switch off myself and accept everything the other has to say, even though its driving me insane. Have done this a countless number of times in my life so far. Sometimes I wonder why I allow myself to get into such situations. Why can't I avoid them? Why am I an easy prey for problems? You might say I should ask them question to an experienced shrink, but I bet the world's most reputed shrink will turn mental when confronted with the silliness of these problems. However, I shall keep my sanity intact and spare you the details (It's a vicious circle you know and the World is much too small a place.)

I wish my mind was immune to random problems so that I could prioritize each problem and deal with them with the right amount of attention they deserve.... be it thesis, friends, life and a whole lot of insignificant things. Wish brains could be upgraded to dual core! I bet Bill Gates or Steve Jobs should think about that, the next big business idea - human tissue-cell, organ upgradation! God, if He/She, really does exists, at least I believe so, creates so many new problems for man/womankind (better humankind) to deal with, although many would argue otherwise, I bloody don't understand why doesn't He/She update us with ways to tackle them. Guess that why some people have a fetish for self actualization.

I know my philosophic wisdom is a bit weak rather screwed up but don't blame me alone, its the kind of formal education I received and the tainted mass media as well.

Regards